... but it never stops the sorrow.

I dunno what is happening to me lately. I feel depressed. To be honest, I think it's the worst depression I've ever had. The reason? I'll tell you.
When I feel depressed is for some reason. For example, I have problems with my family, with my studies, with my work... But now I'm depressed with no reason. Or at least, I dunno the reason.

Some weeks ago I thought it was because of the big amount of changes in my life. The moving of my family to another town and then my moving to my grandma's home. But when all this ended, I still felt depressed.
Then I thought I was depressed 'cause my best friend had a boyfriend, and I thought she'd forget me. But when I understood it was stupid, I thought I'd felt better. But I don't.
Then I thought it was because of my studies. But I have 9,5/10 and 10/10 in the exams, so it can't be the reason.
Then I thought it was because of Heath Ledger's death. Yes, I feel sorry for it, but I was depressed long time before his death, so that's not the reason either.

I can smile, I can laugh, I can joke and I can have a good time. But it's only for a moment. I have a pain on my chest, as if someone were cruelly squeezing my heart, if you understand what I mean. I'm not even sure I'm using a good English.

But well, I hope I'll feel better soon. My mom's searching for a good psychologist, I have plans with my best friend and her friends, and I'll try to get over this pain. I have good reasons to live and good reasons to be happy, I just need to know why I can't enjoy them.

Thanks for your understanding I just wanted to warn you, I mean, if I write even less comments than usual, or if my comments sound strange or... not as happy as they used to be.